According to Eleanor Roosevelt, you should do one thing every day that scares you. That’s a great theory but unrealistic for most folk. But I do believe it’s a good idea to step outside your comfort zone as often as possible, or life would be pretty damn boring if you never challenged yourself to try something new.
So, with this ‘he who dares wins’ attitude, I accepted an invitation to read my work at a new spoken word event, Woo’er with Words (WWW). The idea behind WWW is to provide a platform for writers and poets to perform their work in a relaxed and supportive setting. This type of opportunity is rare in Falkirk which doesn’t have an established literary scene although that doesn’t mean that there isn’t a huge amount of talent in the area. And this was proved to be true throughout the afternoon with a diverse range of entertaining and thought-provoking short stories and poems shared with the audience.
As I was born in Falkirk Royal Infirmary, I’m officially a bairn, the nickname for those born in Falkirk (or pronounced as Fawkurt if you’re local). It seemed appropriate then to deliver my first EVER public reading in my native town and in a café I’ve used for years. And for moral support, I had my wee sister, best pal and hubby there to cheer me on.
Although I’ve been writing for years, I’ve never read my work aloud in public, which is ironic considering public speaking is what I do for a ‘day job’. I stand in front of large groups of teachers training them in a maths resource and it doesn’t faze me in the slightest but ask me to read something I’ve written myself and my stomach churns.
It was the thought of baring my soul and feeling judged that made me nervous. And stupidly, I’d built the scenario up in my mind to be something to avoid rather than embrace.
At work, I know from the evaluations that I’m good at holding an audience’s attention (not easy when the subject matter is numeracy and there’s nearly 400 PowerPoint slides to get through), so I needed to transfer my ability to ‘perform’ into reading my own work.
In the end, I LOVED it. And of course I now wish I’d put myself and my words out there a lot sooner. It was a much bigger buzz than getting a tick in the ‘excellent’ box on an evaluation form at work. Having others compliment my writing was an amazing boost to my confidence and I’d like to thank Untitled for the chance to push my boundaries and achieve a long-term goal. It’s true what they say, FEAR stands for Fear Exceeds Actual Reality.
Do you enjoy participating in spoken word events or does the thought of public speaking make you break out in a cold sweat?