When I received an email inviting me to take part in writer Paul Cuddihy’s series of ‘Read All About It’ podcasts, my first reaction was one of confusion. Why was he asking me? It might help explain why to know that Paul is the brother-in-law of my friend Helen (she’s known as big ‘H’ in comparison to me, wee ‘H’ but in height only, I’m much wider!) so maybe he was desperate for willing victims and was scouring his list of connections.
I thanked him for the invite, said I was flattered but really and truly I didn’t believe that anyone would be in the least bit interested (self-esteem issues, who me?) in my answers to the five questions he set each of his guests. And yet, he replied that he definitely did want me to share my thoughts on my reading likes and dislikes and genuinely did want me to agree to take part. This led to my second reaction.
I have never done a podcast in my life.
I HATE the sound of my own voice (surely I sound more sophisticated than that???)
What if I make an arse of myself and stutter and stumble over the questions?
What if my answers are boring and stupid?
What if I make a mistake?
What if I talk gibberish?
And what if?…
There seemed like a lot of ‘What ifs?’ to panic about.
But, fighting off my inner critic (again!!!), I agreed to do it.
Here are a couple of reasons: my hubby encouraged me to “put myself out there”, and in the spirit of my last blog post, ‘feel the fear and do it anyway’, I wanted (some might say perversely) to challenge myself…
The ‘grow a pair’ decision meant I met up with Paul and put myself in the firing line (completely the wrong phrase relating to a man who welcomed me, put me at ease and listened as if I had something worth saying) to answer the following five questions:-
1. Favourite book from childhood
2. Favourite book from school/university/teenage years
3. A book you’d recommend to anyone
4. A book you couldn’t be paid to read again
5. The last book you read or are currently reading
After listening to the podcast, I cringed as much as I’d expected. I still HATE the sound of my own voice and I’d no idea that I used the expression, “Absolutely” or “Exactly” so often. It would make a good competition to count the number of times I repeat the same words (please don’t, there’s no prize on offer!) and I really don’t want the embarrassment of knowing the total.
Have you ever done a podcast? How would you answer Paul’s questions?